So, I wait.

3 Aug

“There is time enough for everything. Take it easy.” ~ Eleanor Kirk

One might say I’ve adopted this mantra as of late or at least I’ve attempted to. My existence has become a waiting game. How strange it feels to be on the cusp of motherhood, a period of time, change, and role replacement that will alter my path forever. Yet, I’m still sitting around, staring at my ever-growing middle and wondering how this will all work out.

Is there really a 7lb, bouncing baby boy inside me? Am I really to be trusted with this new life? He has been mine for nine long months, how will I learn to share him now?

These are just a few questions that float freely through my mind throughout the day. My life is about to change forever and it’s no little thing. Anticipation. Excitement. Fear.

I told a friend earlier today that the end of this pregnancy has felt much like the end of a deployment. It is by far the most excruciating part emotionally. If you aren’t accustomed to military life, then I’ll let you glimpse it for a moment…

Wives, mothers, sisters, brothers- none of us know exactly when our soldier will be home. We hear various rumors and are often pushed to our limits being told, “The plane should pick them up tomorrow” only to hear the same the next day. What you may not know is that there are several plane rides that eventually bring the service member home. Layovers are days or weeks long and all we can do is wait. All we can do is think about that meeting, eyes finding one another, that first touch that makes everything right with the world again.

I feel much like that now.

Good things come to those who wait, though. I might just have a little bit more wait in me than I thought. I suppose I have the U.S. Army to thank for that.

I waited a whole year to take this homecoming picture. One entire year on the man I love.

Surely, I’ll make it a couple more weeks on my sweet baby to decide to make his way into my arms. So, I wait.

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6 Responses to “So, I wait.”

  1. carolinanorthw August 3, 2011 at 12:53 am #

    LOL! B was on the LAST flight home, and Izzy was three weeks late. Surely the good Lord won’t make you wait like I did! πŸ™‚ You’re doing great! Thanks for the blog!

  2. Paige August 3, 2011 at 9:26 am #

    Maybe God is still putting the finishing touches on him. No worries. Just sit back and relax mama, you won’t have much time to soon enough. πŸ™‚ See you soon!

  3. Jenna Lou August 3, 2011 at 10:17 am #

    This waiting thing isn’t so fun but sooner than you know Baby K will be here!

  4. Becca@ The Finish Line August 3, 2011 at 11:52 am #

    Love homecoming pics πŸ™‚
    It seems like everything happens so fast after they are born that you are never waiting for anything (except for sleep!) because you don’t have time to think about it πŸ™‚ Can’t wait to see pics of your little sweetie! You’re going to be awesome at this!

  5. Kristine August 3, 2011 at 1:53 pm #

    This is a beautiful post. πŸ™‚ I was just thinking about you today. β™₯

    Blessings,
    Kristine

  6. {JeLisa} @ Blogging Ever After August 3, 2011 at 9:32 pm #

    Oh, how I remember that wait! It was awful! Lol.

    My little one was 8 days late, and it felt like 8 years. Seems like you’re handling it much better than I did. πŸ˜‰

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